The mask i wear is always a cheer, smiling and laughing, random jokes and pranks. Even if you know me you might not even seen the me beneath the mask.
What is behind this mask of mine? The very one that protects me from emotional harm, The one that comforts me when i am down. You, were always there my dearest outer personality. My big brother, my best friend. People may say your a bad influence, but the truth is you have always been there to give me advice. Protect me from harm and holds my hand on the darkest nights. Nobody knows my pain and what i have truly undergone. You were always by my side hearing my nagging and my woes.
People say we should be one, my outer self and i should be the same. But little did they know your the one who sang me a lullaby when i was a child. You patted my back when i did well. and cuddle me to sleep when i sobs my nights away.
People gave great advice, and support me through words. I need to do this, I need to do that, I do appreciate all these stuffs. But what i need is a simple long hug, a tight hug and a whisper by my ear saying "I know it painful but everything is really gonna work out and be alright."
No one gave me such heart melting and tear falling words but you my outer-self. No matter what they say. the call it wield and call you names. But in my heart you really did care.
From: My heart
To: My outer self
Thanks for always being there. Even during this toughest times
